Good morning my Beautiful Kings And Queens Every since Kate Spade, may she rest in peace, toke her life I've been reading several comments of how stupid she was or why this or why that. If you have never been in a situation such as depression you will never understand. And let me say this as the statement is so true money can't be you happiness as she had plenty. Her fight was just to damn hard to fight. I'm so sorry nobody saw your true inner feelings and you were just a dollar sign and a designer. I remember vividly sitting in my closet on the floor because my baby was crying. Mind you now a hour before that I had just gotten my ass beat, I was told to make his breakfast before he left for work, I was suffering from postpartum illness in which they had medicated me AND my new born was screaming his head off. The closet was my safe place. I could shut everything off in there. This morning was different. There wasn't going to be a tomorrow for me. I was going to be walking in those heavenly flowers that they made sound so pretty. It was going to be peaceful because the pills they gave me made me super relaxed. When they found me I was going to no longer be any ones burden. The devil had control of my head. Literally. I saw him clear as day. But there was this other side. The side that said there IS a light at the end of this tunnel. I heard very clearly that you can do this. Just work with me. God had thrown me And rope And I was determined to hold on. My point to share this with you is that the fight is REAL. I clearly understand how some can just say I'm done. I'm tired. Battling with 100 demons in your head and then one voice of hope is super hard. I can't help you make a decision but I beg you to JUST HOLD ON. There IS light at the end of YOUR tunnel I love you and remember STAY BEAUTIFUL #thebeautifulmovement #depression #suicide